like you would care.

2005-11-05T22:25:00.000-08:00

heh. im a lazyy girl la..
.
.
.
so long nv blog, duno wat to say..
haha
.
.
.
OH. i have sth to say..
HALLOWEEN IN AUSTRALIA ROCKS! (:
not exactly la..
just that their pranks are more outrageous..
like hanging a supermarket trolley on a road sign..
and throwing lemons avocadoes and eggs at INNOCENT ppl like ME.
haha
actually i only got the avocado..
lemon hit my mum's colleague,
and the locals behing us got the eggs.. haha
they were so cute lor..
calling their fellow australians "crazy"
haha
i guess thats just the fun of halloween(:
haha..
i had fun SHOPPING too
bought many many presents(:
hehe
cheaper there wat..
(:
k..
wana watch KIRA now.. (:
bye..
there's no telling when i'll be back..
haha..
im just too lazy.. x)

2005-08-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

BOO. common test results are -
BAD.
fine im stupid ):
haha.. so funny..
sharyl had a remark on her ss paper..
'f. good'
wth??
haha
we were both laughing like duno wat.
but smart rowena figured it was fairly good
haha
dumb

today went to e tsunami seminar in nus
borring!
haha
i was totally spacing out.
e lecturer keep mumbling..
e mike too soft..
rowena said e person next to her[not me] was sleeping!
haha
so funny..

den we bailed on e buffet and went to e toilet
met some stuck up uni kids :
den went to clementi
walked for a while with lani n rachel tan
bought chocolate pancake (:
yum!
haha
kk.
gtg now
bye

2005-08-15T02:18:00.000-07:00

http://www.victoryrecords.com/Audio/DL/StraylightRun_prom.mp3
check it out! (: i like that song..

ONE MORE DAY!!!

waiting for my tutor again.

hahas.

one hour late??

so b.o.r.e.d

boo-ey

i wana go out!

watch movies!

do********!

ha that sounds vulgar. but its NOT

oh my tutor's here now.

hafta go tuition ):

bye!

2005-08-06T19:25:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERWEI!
hope you like all ur presents n have a great time! ((:

ugh. bad haircut. looks SUPER weird when tied up.
SHANT think abt that now.
shant think about common tests too.
haha. lazy pig.
whee~
national day celebs tmr.
me n yifang have a plan for abba gold! x)

celine cant come today.
mus be mugged by the reporters la..
haha.
so famous now eh..
haha

twins bdae yest
so cute man
haha
hope they like the hello kitty stuff..
but im sure sabrina liked her cash register
kept playing with it
haha
than had national day dinner
so noisy..
haha
the drinks caused me a diarrhoea la

sigh
all wrapped up now...

2005-07-31T01:43:00.000-07:00

haix.
recent events made me think of the past.
the past made me think of memories
HAIX.
nvm.

many ppl are getting sick nowadays
blame it on the weather..
thats wat i ALWAYS do.. haha
but seriously..
sick ppl, take care, and get well soon ((:
non sick ppl, take care too.. dun get sick!
haha
silly..

bought hello kitty stuff for the twins yst
hope they like it..
they're 3 and SUPER cute..
haha

ok..
have to go get started on my a math now..
haha
i noe im lazy

2005-07-21T04:43:00.000-07:00

too many rehearsals lately.. havin them almost everyday lor..
but at least get to miss class..
although im not sure of thats a good thing..
fine im a nerd!
haha
at least i admit it la..

rehearsal was kinda ok..
i guess..
or perhaps im used to bombing the solo alr.
haix
oso not sure...
guess ill jus die at sentosa..
bleagh

n dumbledore died!
haix
so sad lor..
den i tell azura they all jus laughed.
meanie pok!
haha
kidding la.. xP

aiya gtg eat dinner alr..

n i dint even get to eat my durian! im sure e seasons over now.. haix..

2005-07-10T06:09:00.000-07:00

OMG I SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE EATING DURIANS!!!!

ok that was spastic.
haha.
in a good mood now..
cos i finally bought that a&f ripped denim skirt that ive been wanting!((:
yay.. so happy man..
haha
i sound so bimbo la..
dun care! haha
im craziee now.. (((:
although i totally screwed my oral up..
but i wont cry over split words..[lame! haha..]
so i shall be left to my own hyper-ness..
bye!((:

oh ya.. my blogger clocked is screwed.. but i shant bother! haha..
i shall go cut my sisters hair now..[she ask me to cut one ok]

2005-07-07T06:54:00.000-07:00

arhhh..
EL oral tmr.. i got mr ravi!!
the way mr m says it.. hes like the strictest teacher ever!
im dead.

bleagh.
cant do anything abt it anyway..
haix..
can get anything done.
really got to hav my self discipline checked out..
oso duno wat happened.
jus cant bring myself to do any work at all..
haix..

wish i was a computer.. so i could re-program myself.
delete all my flaws.. and save whats left of me..

ok im crapping alr. mus be the lack of sleep.
will go replenish now.

2005-07-04T05:18:00.000-07:00

aiya. sth wrong with my tagboard.
shant care. xP
went to watch initial d today with yifang and hweegeok.. [FINALLY]
haha
it was good.
better than batman actually..
haha
edison chen lks so shuai in this movie! -drools
haha
aiya.. but the storyline was gd too..
except that the ending was a sad one..
i normally prefer happy endings..
haha..

2005-07-01T22:19:00.000-07:00

haha.. i changed skin AGAIN
not so drama alr rite?
dat day i in crazy mood la..
haha

oso duno y so hyper today
got so much math hwk..
den tuition tmr..
mayb its cos were gona watch INITIAL D on mon!
~whee
summore got the BACK seats..
haha..
we went to bk in advance..
so kiasu..
haha
but worth it.

ohh..
duno y i suddenly smell kfc..
HUNGRY!
haha
i shall go HUNT for food now, bye!

2005-06-24T19:52:00.000-07:00

changed my skin!!
yay-ness
haha
but it has NTH to do with him..
just like the pattern..
heex
maybe a little lar.
cant expect me to forget so soon rite?
heex

gosh my cough's killing me.
haix
so are you

kk.
i have GOT to stop this self pity nonsense.
its pathetic.
bleagh.

anw..
mirmo is SWEET.

2005-06-24T18:41:00.000-07:00

HAIX. i WILL get over it.

but ive been such a jealous bitch.
im so guilty now la.
who ask me..
go dream of the impossible,
now the one disappointed is me..
i shld hav woken up much earlier..
spared myself the agony..

BOO. i shall stop wallowing in self pity now
haha
yest was fun
momentary distraction
went to watch initial d with yifang n hweegeok
but sold out
changed to batman
was okay
but abit scary
haha
hes quite hot la
in a mature way
heex
duno y ive been attracted to older guys lately
sumtings wrong with me..

oh yeah.
hafta change my blogskin.
i will.
soon..

2005-06-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

i changed my blogskin!!!!!
snoopy!!!
hehe..
true the punctuations a little weird..
n its difficult to get to the links..
but i love it nevertheless!!
hehe..
helps me relive just a little of jws
a little, but helps all the same...

2005-06-10T20:48:00.000-07:00

ARGH.
JWS!!!
japan withdrawal symptoms..
HAIX.
i dun wana go bintan tmr..
i wana go JAPAN!!!

i STILL dun wana wake up..
i STILL wana dream..
but i have to..
have to move on..
i dun stand a chance anyway..

bleagh.
hate 'mornings'

nevertheless. it HAPPENED.
n im grateful for that..
n thanks hg n sam ho for skida
its all i live on for now..

2005-06-09T02:27:00.000-07:00

ok so i am late. :x
nvm..
JAPAN ROCKED!!!
even though the story abt jap girls ms low told us was depressing..
kk shall recap

day 1:
went airport. too early. cant remember stuff clearly. was sleeping obsenely throughout all plane and bus rides in the trip.. -sheepish smile. love the toilets in japan though! so clean and high tech.. hehe.. i sound so sua ku..

after arriving in osaka, went to the hostel that we were staying in. its was quite nice. slept in bunks.. suiying shared a bunk with me as we were both scared. hehe.. checked out the showers. saw a naked girl. we were shocked.. then later duno y ms low came to noe abt it.. cane to our rm to tell us not to act so shocked when we see naked ppl in the toilet.. haha..

day 2:
went to world expo. quite ok.. singapore booth made us so homesick and craving for singaporean food.. but it was so bloody ex we couldnt bear to spend so much on the food that is so easily avialable to us in a matter of days.. the booth dancer and workers there were super nice to us once theynheard that we were singaporeans.. hehe.. special treatment..then we met this old lady who kept toking to us for no reason at all.. we thought that she wanted to sell us something.. but turns out she gave the cards she demonstrated to us for FREE! omg she was soooo sweet k.. felt so bad for misunderstanding her.. went somewhere later to buy rice balls that WENT MOULDY when i returned to singapore..

went back to hostel. was feelin damn insecure bcos a retarded person(seriously brain damaged. not a figure of speech) barged into one of our rooms.. we kept checking if the doors were locked n stuff.. they kept making weird sounds.. so freaky can.. i noe im bein mean n stuff, but it was seriously scary..

day 3:
went to music musuem, osaka shrine n castle. quite boring, but we met a gay couple.. hehe.. the 'girl' was swaying his hips like duno wat.. haha.. bought hello kitty glitter mist! ((:

day 4:
KINKI!!! omg the ppl are AWESOME! guys are cute, girls are chio.. hehe.. buti was feeling damn weird in my section; i was the only one and youngest one there. too much attention. haha.. interacted alot. only played a little during sectionals.. played most in combined. man were they good! haha.. had alot of rehearsals. was so tired almost dozed off in singapore xperience. ono was so nice!! he turned n asked if i was sleepy even though i dint yawn or anything.. so sensitive n sweet! haha.. then later when we wanted to take a picture, shuji came over and said hi to me.. hehe.. cherlynn was totally glaring at me! haha.. so farnie man.. but she managed to get a pic w/ him the next day ;)

changed to rm 8..

day 5:
concert. what else can i say? amazing. i dint feel nervous at all; they had my back. ((: was sad to leave, though.

day 6
universal studios. was kinda depressed, as i missed the kinki ppl. cried at the entance of universal studios. looked like an idiot, crying over some stupid nonsense.. but cheered up in the theme park. spiderman atraction rocked! haha.. we went for it twice. quite fast as we stupidly bought the express tics. wated 2000 yen man! haha.. but we felt like VIPs when we walked on the express lane..

day 7
so sad. everyone was so gloomy n stuff. totally dint wana come back! but the sweet kinki ppl came to see us off.. ((: told u they were nice! haha.. the sc came with the trumpet sl.. haha ppl were totally fighting to get a pisture for the sc.. haha..s o farnie.. then duno y we went to have an ice cream with them.. not enough space so we sat at another table. seemed quite rude actually so we squeexed at the end of the table.. my ice cream was leaking! haha.. so funny.. then later the kinki teacher suddenly came n took a photo, woth his arms arnd me n hg.. i freaked out, haha.. tot he was some kind of cheekopek or sth.. haha.. but actually he said we lookied like his granddaughters.. haha.. so funny can.. haix.. then we flew back.. so sad! i wana stay in japan! WAHHHHHHH......

2005-05-22T14:15:00.000-07:00

omgomgomg. i wana learn fencing!!!!!
on guard..
hehehehe..
so cool man..
totally love the FLC series
loveitloveitloveit!!!
lok, yat, don, long, sun, nic, and..
KITTEN BOY!!!!!
hehe. forgot his name...
lam, man, qing, yan[not me], kiu[reminds me of hg.. hehe], ching..
loveitloveitloveit!!!
hehehe.
i noe i sound spastic.
hehehe...

my sister is like.. pressing me for the comp now..
kk..
bye..

2005-05-17T20:00:00.000-07:00

aiyo.. soo boringg..
but thank goodness
mummy saved my boring life!
((:
she rented a hk drama serial for me
((:
full of eyecandies
(((:
haha..
too bored liao. spastic.
to think this is only the 2nd day!
how ima gonna survive e wk i duno
haix
nvm.
shall wait
cant wait to go japan!
((:
although im very afraid..
that e jap saxophonists'll lk down on me
cos they're too gd..
haix.
paranoid i noe..
but its still malu-ating
cos they are wat?
university standard??
haiix.
so boring..

2005-05-15T20:45:00.000-07:00

ouch.
my poor tailbone is hurt. again.
stupid drain.
dint see it, stupid pumps stepped in it,
fell n my butt hit the curb.
ouch.

went to the doctors this morn.
he pressed my butt![i was squirming like siao]
den he drew a picture of my tailbone
and gave me mc for one week
hahaha.
excused frm OBS!
but i'll stoning like crazy at home
cant go out, or skool
cas my mother say wat..
later they say i fake injury
pls la.
pain one ok..
haiya.. but anyway,
i am excused from obs.
hahaha..
cant really bring my mind round to it..
seems kinda weird
bought so many things alr than not goin
aiya
but still,
im kinda relieved
un want the mosquitoes n stuff..
n my period came.
so ya..

can anyone help me relieve my boredom in the coming week??
please..

2005-05-11T21:05:00.000-07:00

now im not wishing upon a star
im wishing FOR a star..
a beautiful green one made out of semiprecious crystal
-looks at lijin sadly
65 BLOODY BUCKS
for a pair of earrings?!
not worth.
even if they ARE the cutest things i saw in AGES.
argh. jus hafta wait till i marry a rich guy.
KIDDING.
heh.

but..
exams are over.
-celebrates by swinging arnd in chair madly
shall not worry abt results until they get here.
haha

went town with enjia lijin and hweegeok
broke my record!
haha. 24
((:
spent but dint buy anyting but food.
sad. wasted trip.
xcept we had quite a gd time
laughing.
haha.
1st dat stupid dog at ps.
keep barking at us.
made lijin jump. twice
at first we tot it was hg.
shocked that she would do such a wu liao ting.
but it wasnt her; it was an immature retard
sorry hweegeok!
-sheepish look
den when we passed them again,
that stupid mutt barked AGAIN.
irritating man.
summore he's like, 20?
so old yet act so young.
irony man.
haha.
kk.
shalll stop bitching.
karmakarma.
dun look at me lidat, karma is REAL.
heh

oh no!
i feel another bout of heartbroken-ness coming up
my STAR!
-sobs
haix.
who asked me to be such a poor girl?
sad case man.
HAI.
shall jus hafta to work for it during e june hols.
assuming i get jobs la. booboo.
at least i have a new goal now.
evry cloud has a silver lining! ((:
i totally love clouds
(x
heehee..
jus as i love swarovski n THAT STARR!!!!
haaaaix.
its jus too beautiful, adorable, precious for me to resist!
-sadsad girl

aiya. wana go watch beautiful illusions alr. hee.
dat shows nice!
isnt evryday u get to watch fann wong be evil!
haha..
kk. karmakarma.
i noe im sapstic la.
haha.

are you not fated to be mine just like everything else? im really tired of waiting for the impossible..

2005-05-06T13:39:00.000-07:00

how do i make it stop??

bio lit a math e math left
STILL cant concentrate.
might as well go flunk everyting's thats left.
bleagh.
thats life.
NEVER goes my way.
geog was..
nth to say.
bsh.
only ting to look forward to is -
but e bloody pass isnt even here yet!!!
bshbsh.
STILL so many tings to memorise in bio..
haiyo.
even mommy's given up hope.
she was all"aiya u might as well go and fail la"
see?
im hopeless.

was reminising the past yest[pardon e sucky english]
HAIX
made me even sadder.
sing the blues......
fine THAT brought back even MORE memories..

2005-05-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

messed up//

chem today was..
haix
but better than ss
HAIX
major mood swinging now.
bleagh.
mus be sugar overload.
ate too many ice creams..
even the rain doesnt cheer me up.
even though usually i love the rain
haix
nvm
shall go stare at geog bks now
i dint say study cos to study u hafta think
sth im perfectly incapable of doing now
watever
bye

how i wish... u were in my life.. even though i noe ull never be...

2005-05-01T19:15:00.000-07:00

what happens if you fail your midyrs?
well i guess im gona find out.
haix
never been able to concentrate
duno y..
oh wells
will TRY to focus
although made like more than 10 careless mistakes in tuition today
HAIX

bought a cute watch for 9.90 yest ((:
haha
cheap thrill
matches my swarovski necklace... (:

went to little india to collect flowers
for my mom's company ting
12 strings only
but they gave one BIG box to contain it
tricked my maid that we bought a dog
heh
scared her to death
naughtty me
xP

den went to this lil cafe
ate toasted roti
n drank black coffee
bitter but has a thick aroma
nice! ((:

okok.
hafta go study alr
focus.
.
.
.
.
.
too bad it's dinner now.

see what i mean? cant concentrate! argh

ok. shall study AFTER dinner.

anyway..
HAPPY MAYDAY! ((:
work hard but dun stress urself out..
relax!
a lil at least.. xP

2005-04-29T23:00:00.000-07:00

exam blues..
chinese today
not THAT bad, but li jie wen da could was a killer
oh wells
no point crying over spilt grades
as if i was crying anw
went tbp bk with hg n ej
dng dng heh
hg saw this person dip her french fry into her chilli n smear it over her mouth
hahaha
laughed until i cried
den this weird guy
said excuse me to my bag
he was walking than he couldnt get past
he murmured an excuse me to me bag
i dun tink i was meant to hear it
but i did anw
haha
ate yummy mushroom burger

-yawns
soo tired man
shall go sleep soon

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you'll be smiling, and everyone around you is crying.

i think this is really meaningful...

2005-04-21T19:10:00.000-07:00

i failed a math! big surprise there. bah. been failing like, sincing i started having tests this year? never passed before. not even once have i passed. smart right? shldnt waste my parents money for tuition la. haix. fail so often its like part of my life already.

band celebration and review today. celebration was a little, unnecessary? duno la.. might as well take the time let us play on our instru rite.. i miss my sax! haha.. i noe u ppl out there wana rest after syf la.. but if we dun play today.. den hafta wait all the way until mid yrs are iver then can go touch ur instru? iws man.. intsrument-withdrawal-symptoms haha.. i noe im a band geek la.. anyway.. thanks saxophone sec ones for the flowers! luv it((: haha.. we each got like, a mini bouquet, a card and hershey's? nicee.. ((: so sweet of them.. well, the section lunch (without eunice, as she was cutting cake) was awkward.. no one was talking, except for little whispers.. aiya.. hafta do MAJOR section bonding to closer the 'generation' gaps.. hehe.. den e review.. mrs chua was very nice, saying we did our best at that time, but it wasnt our best OF ALL TIMES.. sigh. we only presented like, 40% of our potential? hai.. dun tok abt it alr la.. depressing.. ): den she went and talked about the japan trip.. we are gonna play like, 4 or 5 songs? without the entire trombone section.. horn only one sec3 one sec1, same eith sax aection.. haix.. we shall hafta work harder to achieve a BIG sound.. on the bright side.. our tuning will be better? i hope? haha.. shall look on the bright side and accept the challenge.. and mayb ms low will get the alumnai to help.. den our sound will definitely be better.. ((: jia you!

2005-04-16T11:25:00.000-07:00

CGSSB GOT GOLD!
we are a RENEWED gold band.. im like.. soo happy.. was worried initially that we would let mrs chua, ms low, ms azilah and all our seniors down.. cos we didnt play our best. at all. a lot of people were crying.. bcos they were disappointed in their own playing. i was too.. couldnt really feel the magic mrs chua was talking abt.. i tried, but couldnt feel the crescent spirit.. only felt it in the 2 times we sung the traditional band song.. seriously felt the bonding.. was crying obscene-ly during the songs.. closing up my mouth n nose to prevent myself frm sniffing too loudly, but ended up gasping for breath.. haha.. so silly.. but it's all worth it now.. cos we got wat we've worked so hard for.. CONGRATS TO CGSSB!

the woman announcing the results was playing with our suspense.. band #144: crescent girls' school, s-GOLD! omg.. i was sooooo afraid she was gona say something else under a gold.. when the word GOLD was read, we screamed the hall down and started bawling in relief. i was crying obscene-ly, again.. haha.. but nth matters now.. we got it! (((: after that. when we were cheering crescent style, i seriously felt VERY proud. i am proud to be part of all of this joy, effort, fear, relief and LOVE. im am proud to sustain the hard earned gold by our seniors. it's the most meaningful thing i have ever done in my entire life.

and now.. it's all over.. seriously feels weird without an aim.. like a big chunk of your life is missing... so weird.. and even though we didnt play our best, we will teach our juniors so they can help us hit our aim: the gold with honours. we will rebuild cgssb's glory! yay.. go us! haha.. seems stupid but you have to be a part of us to understand.. hehe.. see? im being proud again.. haha.. ((:

and when hweegeok, janice and i were out for dinner to celebrate, sum ppl frm other skools took one look at our uniform and ran away.. they were scared of us.. hehe.. n a person frm yet another skool jus stood there in the middle of citylink and clapped for us.. i duno if he was bein sarcastic, cos i noe his skool got gold with honours.. but we took it as a compliment anyway.. we deserved e clap.. haha.. then at queenstown mrt aft janice's parents dropped hweegeok n me off, a grp of students who were talking loudly saw us n shut up.. den they kept staring at us even after we walked past them.. haha.. i was proud. again. heh. bear with the pompous ass for today, k? haha..

so, juniors, pls uphold our glory 2 years frm now.. keep the crescent band legacy going, k? we're counting on u.. ((:

and we are NOT a bronze band. we got GOLD. who are you to insult us? how dare you when YOU are the one who got a bronze in the end? you have NO rights to insult us at all. you are just pathetic and jealous. i bet even your band mates are ashamed of you. and btw, bronze is not that bad at all. be thankful you even got a medal.

2005-03-26T20:20:00.000-08:00

woah. it seems like everyone one in my house except my maid and me is sick.
choy. touch wood.. i dun wana fall sick!

went to enjia's church service for easter today.. it was quite fun.. better than i had expected actually.. lotsa singing n a drama which was kinda scary.. it was abt murder.. hehe.. but a lot of ppl thought i was a sec one. when i told them i was sec 3, their reaction was unison, "huh?!" haha.. enjia and i decided that looking younger than our age is a good thing.. hehe.. yep.. den went to cuppage food court to eat. well. i jus had a drink cos i was having dinner with my family.. met weiting [6 topaz].. wat a coincidence..

then went home with enjia. we both boarded the wrong train.. i was like.. seems wierd.. then she went "oops wrong train.." we literally walked in and outta the train.. haha.. bet the other passengers were wondering wat these two crazy ppl were doin.. then on the train [the right one] there was this old singh guy.. he came and stand beside me.. he suddenly go and hold onto the bar over my hand, like my hand was the bar?! i immediately pulled my hand away.. then that stupid man go and hol the bar over enjia's hand.. she did the same thing as me.. we were laughing like psychomaniacs, but silently.. me mus hav looked like two crazy peeps again.. haha..

2005-03-25T10:00:00.000-08:00

went to sau3 mu4 today.. e place so big.. can get lost in there.. creepy.. but actually its quite nice.. maybe i will go there aft i die.. haha.. i dun tink thats for me to decide la.. haha..

yep. then went to sembawang shopping centre. nth much to shop. e restaurant had a wierd phenomenon- all the waiters n cashiers were guys. v odd la.. dun tink too much, i wasnt checking the guys out k! they are too old anyway.. hahaha..

*to rowena- dun be so sad k? cheer up.. remember i will always be willing to listen to you.. take care and smile always ((:

2005-03-24T03:49:00.000-08:00

my life's a mess

-ppl bad mooding
-tone sucks
-got into trouble with same teacher twice
-lost 2 pens in 2 days
-homework overload!
-my rep is ruined :'(
-too many commitments, one me
-tuition hwk not done
-miss you
-getting on my nerves
-disappointment
-uncertainty
-home-made nasi briyani for dinner [is that good??]

isnt it a mess?

2005-03-20T00:29:00.000-08:00

i changed my skin.. nice and simple.. jus the way i like it.. i jus copied n pasted.. didnt do much.. haha.. watched howl's moving castle.. with my sis, hg n her sis.. like sisters day or sth.. haha.. so nice k.. esp a first scene when howl came out.. like.. whoa.. so charming.. -swoons he was so sweet to sophie k.. ((: i met jess!! first time i saw her since she cut her hair.. so pretty.. we were screaming n laughing in the middle of nowhere.. haha.. yep.. so fun..

2005-03-19T13:45:00.000-08:00

[haix]
went to acs(i) for exchange yest. played like SHIT. tuning sucked like siaoo.. solo was BOMBED. in the end everyone was depressed.. and hungry.. we didnt have any lunch.. how to play with an empty stomach? not energy to sustain the notes, not to mention crescendo?

at least the morning was good.. mr (long jap name) came. he helped us ALOT, but stupid me forgot all that he said when on stage. haiix. nvm.. i still strive to improve. i will change my reed and all the stuff he told us to do.

after the exchange, went to anchorpoint for dinner with hweegeok enjia and janice. ate e pasta tingy.. frm 1 extreme to another.. v hungry to v full.. and ej was still hungry! pei4 fu2 her man.. ((: den later duno wat she n hg PLOTTING, so secretive.. den leave me n janice in the dark.. poor us! haha..

haii.. school re-opening soon? TOO soon.. haix.. haven finished hwk yet.. boo.

2005-02-07T03:09:00.000-08:00

fine.. im lazy to blog.. haha.. cross-country today.. walked for almost the whole thing.. haha.. ya.. only saw one monkey. phew. haha.. than went to tanglin mall for lunch. met lijin and sam.. talked and ate.. than went to school hardy mertens came!! and his chio girlfriend.. haha.. cute couple ya.. poor ameera.. heehee.. cant believe were playing s'pore experience for SYF! at least have no solo la.. ya.. but duno why my tone so bloody metallic today la.. brought instru back.. heavy man.

yesterday
reunion dinner! yum.. saw 2 very diff guys.. one is sian sian for reunion dinner.. lean on one hand and drink tea. cute ((: second one damn action.. wear this sloppy tie den look so action.. haha..

day before yesterday
flag day! so fun man.. but got these stupid ppl keep disturbing us.. tsk. ya.. but rowena so chio attracted so many boys.. haha..ya.. lazt to type more.. hehe.. i noe.. like pig.. ((:

2005-01-12T20:30:00.000-08:00

wow. soo long nv blog already. so much hwk! a math e math this math that math. nevertheless, excited for tomoro!! although have bio and geog test, its CCA day! :)) wana see juniors man.. hehe.. saxophone section is so pathetic now.. only 5 ppl.. haaix.. sad man.. so sec ones! join gssb sax section!! yay.. haha.. oso duno y so hyper. haven study for test! i actually forgot to bring bio tbk home.. so smart man.. :X

bullied nicole today at lunch.. haha.. made fun of her vegetarian dinner.. hweegeok--> charsiew!!
hahahahahahahaha.. fine, only nic n hg will understand la.. hehe.. im naughty..

btw.. my form teacher is mr M and ms tan [new] so lucky rite.. haha.. today duno y chem teacher so bad mood.. keep scolding us for e ppl who come late. pms? heh.. aiya.. need to study already.. tskk...

its bong not bang!

2004-12-23T16:58:00.000-08:00

hey.. im blogging via the free internet at the airport. leaving in 45 mins.. have one thing to say to yall:

Merry Christmas!
as i will not be in s'pore, i shall send my best wishes to everyone here..

i will only be back on 31st dec.. haix.. gonna miss haixing exchange.. so sad.. :( but nvm.. gonna look on the bright side.. shopping! yay.. love shopping. so girly rite.. heez.. aiya.. this free internet thing got time limit.. on 9 mins left.. gotta rush.. duno if my post got published yest.. no time to check.. goin off yet hwk not done.. heh.. naughty me.. aiya.. skool oso shouldnt make us do so much hwk wat... heh.. givin excuses for myself.. ok.. gtg liao.. restrictions already! bye..

2004-12-22T18:32:00.000-08:00

argh. sway day. first step outta my hse door and i fall down. den banged my hand on the cab door. ouch. den marching i kept turning the wrong way and stuff.haix. at least band was ok. played christmas songs! heh. fun.

thought of a sypnosis for s'pore rhapsody. it is abt a dying old man.. e 1st part [slow rasa sayang] describes him in his death bed, thinking abt his life.. when he was young, a kid, full of life.. den e fast one is the flashback -think black and white old tv- abt his kampong days.. u noe like swimming in e longkang, alla way until adagio.. coming back to e future, the minor sound depicts him dying.. his family crying.. den drag until his head falls back on e bed, dead. done! haha.. a bit sad.. but most of the song is e happy good ole days..

ok now my sis is pissed cos i forced her to read a story bk for her own good. hmph. hao xin mei hao bao. lalala.. shall ignore her then.

2004-12-04T18:00:00.000-08:00

went out yesterday with hwee geok and ameera.. last one with ameera! boo-hoo.. :'( dey both brought their cams wit them.. didnt bring mine cos never charge.. hai..

nvm. shall recap.

first recordable ting dat happened was that a silly bird poo-ed on my foot [dey both took pics of it.. hwee geok refused to give me tissue unless i let them take the pic..mean rite! jk.] den we set off.. went to ps first walked one round in the basement den left.. next we went to wisma.. stupid woman at subway ignored my order so went to breadtalk instead.. bought this icky long bread that was terrible.. wanted to throw it away but they tried it first.. while crossing the road.. were running like mad women.. ameera looked wierdest cos she was still holding the bread.. haha..

den went to paragon.. ate lunch.. well, hwee geok did anyway.. i only bought two sticks of chicken tingies.. poor ameera only ate crackers.. haha.. den went to fep.. caught ameera doin e slack hand gesture.. haha.. den we challenge each other to catch each other doin e gesture.. haha.. den went to esplanade.. wanted to take a stroll but too hot.. den went mrs fields to cool off.. saved ameera frm embarassement by sharing e drink wit her.. hwee geok bought a muffin dat was so hard.. aft taking many pics of her sly frm my mag.. den went to e smelly roof to take pics.. den went to library.. wanted to borrowed a score bk but it was for premium members only.. sick. den went back home via citylink.. hwee geok bought breakfast den we went home.. den ameera gave us many cute cute stuff as prezzies.. sorry.. couldnt find ur earrings!

2004-11-24T23:00:00.000-08:00

hey.. long time no blog.. first let me write sth for ameera-

ameera: stay strong, k? dun let dat stoopid idiot tramatise u.. dun be scared of him.. dun be like me.. so scaredy-cat.. haha.. good luck goin back to macs tomoro.. hope dat indian duck bad luck phase is over for u.. we shall both try not to meet any of those silly birds again..

went to tBp today to watch the incredibles with my sis.. so darn farnie.. haha.. azura called my sis violet when she and janice came to my hse yest to get her wallet cos my sis was so shy around them.. but i tink my sis too clumsy to be violet.. haha.. today when we went to kfc to eat lunch, she toppled her whole tray and dropped ALL her chicken, and spilled her drink.. den e kfc woman kept staring at her with her super black face.. make poor violet so guilty.. so mean rite =P

den we watched e movie.. got a blur grp of ppl sat at our seats by mistake..but in e end someone else told them they were occupying the wrong seats.. den before e movie started, they played this silly short show tingy that kept showing a bouncing lamb -___-" i tot we went to the wrong theartre or sth.. den when e show finally started, e ppl sitting at the last row behind us kept talking loudly and disrupting e show.. so sickening.. when other ppl changing their phone to silent mode or sth they said loudly in chinese "eh.. ppl playing phone ar" den DURING e show their phone rang WITH ringtone den they only laughed loudly.. sickening.. nevertheless, e show turned out quite well.. never waste my 6.50.. haha.. $_$

2004-11-17T21:45:00.000-08:00

the day after the concert. let me recap everything that happened yesterday.

woke up at 0630. baked chocolate cake for my section. azura came over n my maid helped her iron her band skirt. went to skool. met e rest of my section. tied my hair [looked like curry puff!] and went for supposedly section lunch, actually only me ameera liwei n azura.. so pathetic.. wanted to go tanglin macs but e stupid bus dint come.. so we ended up goin to mobil..

warmed up and proceeded to vch. the place was ok, but i prefer esplanade [duh!] e stairs to e dressing room is super dangerous k.. banged my shin.. ouch... helped percussion unload e bamboo thingies.. so cute.. i kept smiling like siao when i was carrying it.. flutes, saxophones, oboes and clarinets were all squashed into one tiny room.. felt like sardines in a can.. haha.. den we went for rehearsal.. there was this sparrow dat kept flying in the hall.. so scary.. during one song, the stupid thing actually flew so low that it touched my head! eew.. sick man.. den later it landed near our feet and scared azura half to death.. silly bird just wont quit.. now really can say 'blame it on the bird'! hahaha..

after rehearsal got another heart attack. my band shoes were missing! i tink it dropped out of the section shoe bag.. i was so bloody scared lor.. asked shermin wat to do den she told me to call miss low.. miss low was quite nice.. she told me not to panic and search again.. i did, but to no avail.. den another nice lady, pamela's mother lent me her shoes.. it fit, but i was so malu-ated.. haix.. azura kept blaming herself although its totally not her fault at all.. den later on joanne helped me switch shoes with a counsellor, tania.. dey were a little big, so ameera offered to switch shoes with me for the concert.. so in the end i had shoes after all.. thank you everyone who showed concern for me and helped me go through the horrible experience. i really really appreciate all your help! THANKS!

then, the concert came. we walked on stage and played.. i tink all the songs we played were better than rehearsal.. duno why.. soon came intermission.. i forced everyone to eat my cake.. den went downstairs to give more cake.. kena malu-ed 4 times with different people.. will not elaborate. ya.. then i met my family. they were sitting with hwee geok's family.. saw the 2 sisters toking throughout the concert.. haha..

after the concert, waited quite long for the buses to come.. i ended up sitting with 4 instruments.. feel asleep on the bus.. hope i didnt drool.. haha.. ya.. the skool was creepy at night.. so dark.. den i went home, bathed [scrubbed hair extra hard on account of bird] and ate cos i dint eat much for dinner as was looking for shoes.. btw i found them in e band rm -_-"

ya thats abt it.. wow.. i tink this is my longest entry ever.. heh.. so proud of meself..

2004-11-16T08:25:00.000-08:00

woo-hoo! concert today.. feeling scared yet excited at the same time.. baked cake for my section.. chocolate.. duno whether nice or not.. hahaha.. got section breakfast later.. yippee!! wait! i smell my cake.. i go check on it..-

-almost done.. aiyo.. dat ameera just msged me say that her dad fetching so dun wana meet me anymore.. mean! haha.. haix... i see my own hair den headache.. duno how to tie french braid.. sure super messy one.. oops, i heard my oven-

-heh.. all done!! =) yay.. now my only worry is how to fit it into a box! hahaha.. so hyper... sorrie for this stupid entry.. all broken up cos of my cake.. haha..

2004-11-15T21:00:00.000-08:00

uh-oh. nerves! saw 7 indian ducks yesterday.. got bad luck la.. told celine.. den she say 'blame it on the birds' hahahahaha.. but oh no!! concert tomoro.. very damn scared.. fingers cant type liao.. too flustered.. went to wheelock place today.. cute curly escalators!! hahaha-

AHH.. champion on now.. gtg.. blog tomoro la.. or later.. depends.. 2nd last episode!! gona miss tomoros one cos concert!!!! kk wana watch now liao.. YABBA!

2004-11-11T02:50:00.000-08:00

wah.. so long nv blog liao.. shall jus update most impt stuff:
i have:
new hair [eeps!]
no job [not that i failed oje. parents dun let cos mus work at least 6 mths]
new attitude [hopefully]
new mouthpiece[getting used to it..]
new file[finally got it, eunice!]

erm.. thats abt it, i guess.. i'll try to update more often so this blog doesnt rot!

2004-10-29T19:15:00.000-07:00

i am sorry. i never realised that i was so inconsiderate. i just felt my own sadness and not yours. i will try to change for better. thank you for your words. they have helped me wake up and come back to the harsh reality that no one likes me. i sincerely hope we can stay friends. both of you.please call me if you want to. everyone, if you hate me, pls do me one last favor and tell me. i dont want to go through the agony of finding out by myself. please spare me the pain. tell me and i'll never pester you again. but on 1 condition. i want to know why you hate me. once again, im sorry, and thanks.

2004-10-27T02:06:00.000-07:00

heh. just returned frm QSC macs. passed e interview [1/2 an hour!!], and going for OJE on fri. i let ameera have the earlier slot cos she has to break fast in e evening.. hope i'll get e job. didnt wait for hweegeok cos e bus came and they wanted to take it.. sorry hweegeok!

this entry is also dedicated to the ppl who gave presents to me for my bdae..

THANK YOU:

dad for new sports shoes
mum for 2 bags and e saxophone clock
sherwei for nike water bottle
saxophone section for pink bag and glittery soap
raechelle, huisi and jess for flowers and bear
sam ho for marimo
hwee geok for potpurri and mini saxophone badge
li jin for a box of ferrero rocher
june for e little silver dolphin

thank you soo much.. i really appreciate your gifts.. i'll never forget you all.. =)

2004-10-16T18:54:00.000-07:00

band today. we moved 5 times.. we're a mobile band! i think cgssb can move pretty well.. tsk tsk.. sheryan ar.. so ego.. haha.. we played doraemon at the canteen den when we finished, the guides and ncc clapped for us.. so malu can.. azura was totally covering her face.. heez.

after band, ameera and i went to the 51 bus stop.. she missed 2 51s in a row.. she was screaming like siao la.. so funny.. but wat happened next was even funnier.. at least to me it is.. ameera said i laughed till my face was red and i was crying.. actually i didnt mean to laugh like that.. but it was too funny.. there was this old man.. he was walking at normal speed when he tripped over something (his own foot i think) and sorta did this jiggle like he was dancing.. imagine that.. an old man dancing wildly in public.. i almost died laughing.. den my parents came and offered ameera a lift.. the stereo was playing this disco song like the singapore idol theme and ameera said maybe that man was a disco king in his days.. i had another laughing fit.

today is 16 oct. 30 days to the concert and 7 days to my birthday.. *hint hint* ;P

2004-10-14T13:15:00.000-07:00

people. the tickets to cgssb's concert at vch are here. the concert is on 16 nov 2004, at 7.30pm. tickets are s$15 for stall seats and s$25 for circle seats. PLEASE buy from me.. thank you.

haiz. im pathetic sia. advertising at my own blog. nvm. please please please buy from me..

2004-10-05T14:20:00.000-07:00

history and dnt today. i cant draw.. haiz.. i couldnt find e hidden lines.. nvm.. i shant bother.. dat goh kc.. force us to go to 2c3, den e whole room so hot and stuffy.. i sat at the back.. couldnt see or hear anything at all. waste of time man.. argh. cant wait for the exams to be over.. 2 more days to go (!!!) cant wait for fri.. goin sh0ppinG.. heez..

haiz.. hope i dont fail anything.. cant afford to.. results too bad already... :'(

2004-10-02T01:06:00.000-07:00

oh ya.. there IS a brighter note.. cos of the pledge a gift thing.. hee.. john tay is CUTE!! dun get the wrong idea.. he's only primary 2.. hee.. so cute..

2004-10-01T14:55:00.000-07:00

exam blues. now i live for exams. nothing else can distract me. not.

sometimes i think people are trying to distract me from studies on purpose. i cant concentrate at all. there is just too many things to think and worry about.

parents pressurize. teachers pressurize. as if good results will suddenly appear if you study non stop the day before. they say it themselves, but if you dun study the day before, they would nag and nag that you will fail. if you will fail, no matter how much you study the day before wont help. WHY CANT THEY UNDERSTAND THAT??

as the exams are nearing, people get flustered very easily. the slightest irritation can suddenly become a big deal. i am sorry if i threw my temper at you. i am not being myself. stress makes that happen. forgive me.

to top it all, [[she]] has been daoing me.

on a brighter note..

there is no brighter note. all is dark. exam blues.

2004-09-18T15:50:00.000-07:00

i am feeling a mixture of emotions right now.

fear- of the dramatic change going on around me

anger- at certain people who are totally getting on my nerves

irritation- at a certain person that is getting actioner by the moment

l0vE- for [[them]]

sadness- for my friends who are hurt and sad

happiness- heh. htp has been certified as one of [[them]]

shocked- at a recent discovery

inferior- because i'm me

guilty- you know why

hurt- because someone's hurt

confused- i dont know how to get out of this state of mind!!!

haiz. i really dont know what to do. help?

2004-09-16T17:30:00.000-07:00

haiyo.. tomoro i have science test.. duno y juz cant seem to grasp the concept.. haiz.. ya.. *ameera.. dun be so sad, k?? i noe u are under pressure.. tell me so i can help u, k? ya.. n sory abt ur head.. hehe..* *azura, y were u wit ms chan today?? hehe.. i sat there toking to her b4 too.. abt -------.. so malu.. hehe*

heh i juz typed dat then azura sms me.. i dun lyk -------. ha. actualli u dun need to be so scared of her leh.. she just petty. ya.. she bully u den i go back n protect u!! haha.. i strong.. haha.. so ego.. ya.. need to go study liao.. got TEST tomoro.. ya im becoming naggy ah ma.. heh.

2004-09-10T21:30:00.000-07:00

hey.. im back from cruise.. ya.. it was ok.. only there was this really scary guy in a perfromance.. he's only 68cm tall but he's 21 years old this year. actualli i tink he is quite unlucky.. have such an illness that does not allow him to grow up, and having to endure horrible people like me watching him.. so sad for him.. :'(

haiz.. never go for band today.. not back frm cruise wat.. stupid me.. forgot to leave my file in skool.. i wanted to practise.. so i brought it home.. forgot that eunice and azura needed it.. haiz.. now like everyone is pissed with me.. haiz.

2004-09-05T22:15:00.000-07:00

ahh.. sept hols are finally here.. n i have to go cruise with my uncle n cousins.. sigh.. feel so guilty.. my uncle paid for me.. like 560 bucks.. cos its duno wat.. balcony class or sth.. lame la.. im like so extra.. summore muz ppl pay for me.. n wat.. dey sae there will be no reception on sea.. so cant bring my phone.. so sad lor.. i guess i'll jus eat eat and eat throughout e whole ting.. so i'll probably come back looking lyk a bloated balloon.. sigh.. oh ya.. i'll be sorta getting a new room as i go cruise.. change my bed n closet n stuff.. aiya.. later change my fengshui, duno for better ar worse..

i feel like spilling my heart out.. but i cant do it.. its torture.. haiz.. i'm sorry.

2004-09-03T23:43:00.000-07:00

like omg.. i have to run 60 rounds??!! ran 5 this morning, only have 55 now.. sick man..coz dey sae 1 min late run 1 round.. den i 1 hour 'late' (i didnt even go) so i have to run SIXTY rounds.. i actualli wanted to go marching one.. but hweegeok said no need.. haiz.. nvm la.. at least she'll be running with me.. i'll not be running alone.. like an idiot.. haiz.. summore today cant go for band.. stupid cip.. i cant sew lor.. still force me.. den when ugly she make us stay back.. sick man.. i escaped to e band rm before she dimiss us.. den ms low sae wat.. got combined band camp.. n wat.. go new zealand.. $1400.. double e price of thailand.. sick man.. so ex.. i need to get a job.. or else sure cant go one lor.. sucky.. who want to hire me??

den later i go red hill mrt, eat that mashed potato.. so hot.. n watery.. yuck.. den go mrt.. see this weird old man.. looking at us with a scrunched up face.. i told azura den she couldnt stop laughin.. ya.. den i reached home.. rush rush rush.. thought got tuition.. in e end dun have. sigh.

2004-09-03T18:00:00.000-07:00

why does it always have to end up like this? why cant it be a change for once? is this called fate? is this called life? well, i dont like it. as if anyone cares. nobody does. i should just blend into the concrete wall. maybe i will be happier that way.

haiz. i cant take this anymore. one day i will blow. again. you think i want to? not that i can control. ya. who cares anyway? its just me. not your who-has.. nvm.. i shall adapt the yoga way to control my emotions. doesnt work for very long, but it keeps me going. at least. argh.

2004-09-02T21:45:00.000-07:00

i wanna watch 13 going on 30 n a cinderella story!! will someone pls go wit me.. i feel frenless.. no one wants to go watch movie with me.. sigh.. -alone- haiz.. summore studies so darn bad.. failed 2 subjects.. science n dnt.. haiz.. dun even have a1.. only 2 lousy a2s.. sick.. and today mr m called me to e teachers' table.. say wat my grades slipping.. blah blah blah.. den suddenly say i got big improvement.. siao.. i tink he's drunk.. ya.. den later got band.. i brought my butt pillow along.. ameera keep saying it's appealing.. she wants to sit on it.. den later jean come n say later 2 of us stay back.. ameera n me so scared kena scolding.. actualli its only a pinpoint session.. phew. btw.. my tailbone still hurts. ouch.

2004-09-01T16:25:00.000-07:00

ah.. me first post. im so sua ku.. ya.. thanks hui si n hwee geok for helping me.. =) thanks soo much!! today went rollerblading for the first time in my life.. told ya i am sua ku.. haha.. ya.. keep falling on my butt.. now so pain. cant walk much.. or bend down.. like ah ma.. i suck at rollerblading.. den got some irritating guys.. keep laughing at me.. n rollerblading in front of me.. sick man.. i tink i broke my tailbone.. ouch.